yamanai ame da neeee

Sunday, January 20, 2008

hi i was just re-reading my posts and i realise i sound like i hate my job!
haha.. no la i don't actually dislike it that much....
the kids can get really cute :) (altho they can NEVER be cute enough to persuade me to take up teaching as a career next time....) they remind me of the innocence of my childhood days where everything would be settled if only i dared to tell the teacher all the bad bad bad things my classmates have done to me, like messing up my table and refusing to show me her sticker collection. and even though they can get up to soo many devilish acts, they can get really sweet too. i'm still going gaga over the get well card this p2 girl gave me cause i told them i got sore eyes. :D and the little art thingies they'd make for me when i ask them to 'draw me!'. it rocks that they never have a single evil thought in their mind.. like they won't draw me as a man-looking thing with afro curls. (which is what i would have done if a teacher who looks like me asked me to draw her)

but this doesn't change the fact that i'm sick with the way the management handles stuff. oh well. i don't know who is to blame.. ok nvm.

anyway, these few days have been pretty horrible on my pockets!
transport fee is seriously draining me away like nobody's business.
went to innova on thursday with shuduan and amanda and ate niu ro mian. YES. cool. it still tastes the same and all the aunties there are all still so friendly!!! and i think they kinda rmb us. hahah.. omg we're J3s leh. scary. and and and we saw baizura! omg. she's still the same hahaha..
oh and i met jiayin at the mrt station argh embarrassing. she was greatly amused by my teacher clothes. and meanwhile, i was greatly amused to see her experiencing jc life. hahahah.. jiayou women. WHYY YOU GO AC!

saturday, toy diana and i went to ikea (trip there cost so freaking much) and we bought a lamp for cheryl's bday prezzie. and then matong joined us, we went to her house to set it up for her in her simply-mind-blowingly-big-and-unbelievably-beautiful room. it like had an attic ok. damn cool. anw, there we had pizza.. and enjoyed ourselves. :) hope she likes the present.

school tml.
i miss innova. haha. ironically.

9:56 PM

serena joy
Wednesday, January 16, 2008

some idiot irritated the shit out of me today.
in short, we were having 75th aniversary mass and so behind us were a group of bible grp people or smth and they were also parents.
so i was just having fun singing the songs and i was just RELIVING some old jokes abt the ij songs. omg and she told me, 'this mass might not be impt to you, but you must be respectful and be reverent. you're setting a very bad example for us blah blah blah' omg go and die la. just cause i luaghed during mass and was enjoying myself saying 'peace be with you' doesn't mean I DONT MEAN what i'm saying. BITCHFACE.

she reminded me of serena joy ok. the handmaid's tale one.

anyway, pretty poor response on the stnicks funfair.
no, not poor response, its not unfair to say almost NO response.
yup. haha don't know how people can ignore messages like that.
oh welllllllll. dunno. don't wanna go also respond right.. ok whatever la.

ok i'm still pissed off with the woman. now is the time where i wish i was pretty glib in my vulgarities. DAMN YOU SERENA JOY WANNABE. it doesn't help the her dress sense was totally bad, which reminds me more of serena. and she donated some flowers thingy to the school which made her MORE like serena joy. eew. so pretentious.

bye.

5:54 PM

a family of 3
Sunday, January 13, 2008

so my sister is going to doha to work. for 3 years.
hm. i don't know how to feel about it. haha she's leaving 15 feb.

my brother's coming back soon for cny..
he's leaving 16 feb.

haha it occurred to me none of them are going to be there for me when i receive my alvl results. and i don't know if that's good or bad. argh. and shes going for 3 years which means she's probably gna miss out on a large part of my uni life (if i even get in) like how my brother missed out my entire jc life... i'm thinking he'd probably be quite a good person to have at home to complain to.... since my sister was always so occupied with her own life. haha.
there is a large possibility he won't be coming back anymore even after he grads in july and now that my sis is not ard anymore, i don't think we might be going over for his graduation. that really sucks.
so now there's only 3 people at home...
it also occurred to me both of them might be missing my birthdaysssss. HAI.

honestly, i'm trying not to imagine what life would be like..
it was good to have people occupy me when i was nervous and make noise when i was feeling lonely.
i just hope my brother doesn't stay in aussie i guess.
but i don't have a good feeling abt that. hai...... and of course im not gna persuade him otherwise if he decides to stay.. the house will be so empty :(
and my parents are getting old. oh god this REALLY sucks.

i know how i'm feeling right now, i'm feeling like how i felt few days after stepping down from guides, few days before the last day of school in sec four, that day 1st 3 months ended, last day of alvls.
like if i stopped and let myself go i could sit and cry forever.

12:48 PM

ice breaking
Saturday, January 12, 2008

i think nothing breaks ice better then time.

natalie promised me she'll do her journal and hand in on monday.
omg omg im apprehensive and happy at the same time. yes! i got her to say she'll do her work man!!! for someone who turned me down with 'i dont do hmwk' on the first day of school, THIS IS GREAT IMPROVEMENT. am i good or what. hahah ok but but i think in the end she won't do it. argh. ok.. and she's just saying it to stop me from nagging. ok nvm, have faith in your students. must trust them than they'll trust you.

anyway, i cannot stand it anymore. i need to go watch the coffee prince online cause i CANNOT sit at home and wait for 10 everyday just to watch it!!! and weekends just make the waits more gruelling. so bye.

oh oh desperate plead from me:
can anyone suggest any word/english games for me to play with them.
im running dry.

3:06 PM

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

you know i can't believe i have to do things like steal primary 5 assessment books from the staff room to photostat for my TWO em3 students to do. and i have to go on yahoo and search 'spelling lists for 12 year olds'. and my sister started to complain how come i have to come up with WHAT to teach and all i could say is because no one else cares .

i guess this is the ugly side of better schools.
they forget the lagging end of the cohort cause all they really care about is how many gets quality grades. damn it. go and die lah.

but then again, im not sure what im doing is actually appreciated by the students- looking at the way they talk to me and slam their books and refuse to do their work.
today i found out that one of my students failed primary 5 cause she went for her oral exam and sat there and didnt say anything.

what am i gonna do? i feel like crying.

9:15 PM

good things in life.
Sunday, January 06, 2008

Thought i should write more about my month of december tho i already cant rmb much of it.. and the little time i have spent in the new year of TWOZEROZEROEIGHT(omg).

26 nov: completed my alvls and packed my table (YEAH BABEH)
............not in any specific order:
1. 6hopet outing. yentl bethia matong and yanni :) caught up with all of them and got to see yentl for the last time before she flew back to hong kong to enjoy life or retirement from singapore and her horrible education system.
2. 0633A bbq. it was cool. got to see everyone again, exchange presents and fool around. yay.
3. farm hopping with betty matong winnie and wendy.. hahahahaha. it was just lame fun and we went off with a lot of horrible mozzie bites. sat at our favourite hideout (suntec starbucks) until really late and had a great great time.
4. christmas bbq with celebs. stay overed at matong's house. it was goooooood. it just made me think that love can overcome distances-even though it might have been a little bit at a time.. a little is always better then none.
5. new year countdown with winnie matong marian toylyn wendy :)) it was cool! hahah went to the hideout and stayed there till really late. saw the fireworks from the fountain.. cheered and screamed on the streets and embarrassed ourselves. lay a mat in the middle of no where and played bridge the entire night. hahah..
6. joined innotrek and made a couple of cool friends. at the same time i was also revealed to the ugly sides life. oh well. haha the people there were nice and i appreciate them even thought it may SEEM like i don't make much effort to integrate myself. i do. in my own way and at my own time i guess.
7. got the job at stnicks. COOL SHIT. hahaha.. im totally lovin my job. hm yah. haha no la. i got nice colleagues and nice mentors. and so far, the experience is simply not like other admin jobs. i have like weird problematic, infamous students and it feels good to know i am given an opportunity to help them PASS their psle and do better then before. it feels like i'm given a chance to inspire people la.. and I HAVE TO BE STRONG! comeon liting you can do it. its a totally new thing altogether and i'm just trying to get used to everyday life as a teacher (omg im a teacher). don't know if i made the wrong choice in not taking up the innotrek job, but i dont think i have any regrets so far :)

ANYWAYS, im just back from the odac chalet hahaha ok no as in i just woke up afrer falling asleep upon reaching home at 2.
just wanted to say IT WAS FUN! wow hhaha thanks everyone, for giving me a great time. especially during the bbq part.. jiang kiat weixiang raj and i were just sitting outside and talking and doing alot of shit (coincidentally we are all innotrek-ers) then we were joined by small amanda!!! YAY LAO PO! so long never see her man! talked and had alot of fun with her and the rest la.
the night before we spent a night at the beach fooling around and playing at the playground there.
bbq night a few of us played 'i have never' SORRY hahahahah we all did dares that were like so lame. raj ran around the chalet and shouted 'I AM BALA!!!!!!!' in front of all the srangers sitting outside.. hmmm.. small went to a family playing mahjong and said 'neh neh ni poo poo' hahahah i had to go in front of another chalet and do a series of dumb cowboy things the guys learned in innotrek i think.. OMG EMBARRASSING. hahaha jaing kiat had to go up to this guy and say 'hi i am gay can i have your number?' but i think he cheated and told the guy he was playing truth or dare. hahahaha.. omg lame shit.
its been a long time since amanda and i talked and just wanted to say it was pretty enlightening. haha... yah. ok i shall try not to get too obsessed la huh.
ok yes. i havent slept in two days oh my ass.
now, i will go plan my lessons. bye everyone wish me goodluck for yet another week.

OH I JUST FOUND SMTH SO INTERESTING!
Dating outside your faith

“Don’t team up with those who are unbelievers. How can goodness be a partner with wickedness? How can light live with darkness?”

With admonishments like this from Second Corinthians 6:14, you might think you’re doomed if you date someone outside your faith. But taken less literally, this Bible verse actually could be read as advising you against dating people who have no faith, rather than a different one. Many couples have found that it is possible to have an interfaith relationship or marriage—though creating one requires overcoming certain challenges.

8:22 PM